What is my blog for if not for self absorbed reflection and/or whining? You can probably skip this one really. It’s just me writing to myself.
I left work yesterday and could not remember what I was supposed to get at the store. I knew I needed stuff but couldn’t remember what. I ended up going with the wander through the store and hope something sparks my memory strategy and came home with sparkling water, cottage cheese, apples, and milk. I think what we really needed was catfood and peanut butter so I’ll be back at the store again tonight.
I got home around 6 and started making spicy chick peas and beef. I kind of started to realize I was starting to see some migraine aura when I was trying to thaw the beef. It was hard to read the text on the microwave buttons. It took me five or six tries before I managed to get it set right. I’m guessing I have some general confusion issues as part of the whole aura thing but they’re hard to define. Everything gets harder and I make a lot of mistakes. I was still in denial at this point though. I was telling myself I must have looked directly at a bright light, I was over reacting thinking this was another migraine.
While the beef was thawing I started chopping the onions. I wasn’t doing a very good job somehow. Then I realized I wasn’t really seeing the onions very well. I was trying to be really careful with the knife because now the denial phase of the migraine aura was passing. I thought about finding Brian and asking him to do the rest but I was getting really angry that this was happening again. I was thinking about how lots of people have way worse stuff wrong with them and they muddle through. I can make stupid dinner. I can do this. If I’m going to suddenly be back in the land of regular migraines I have to just deal. Suck it up and make dinner already.
I ran and took some relpax and started cooking the onions. I was really angry about the stupid headache and how stupid it makes me. I cooked the ground beef and drained the chick peas. I was going to get it done… but when Brian walked through the kitchen I gave up and passed the baton to him.
Dinner was great. The relpax only kind of worked. I probably should have taken a second dose because the headache was pretty bad again about 3 hours later.
I’m a little freaked out, I think this is the fourth migraine with aura in the last month. I’m hoping this streak is just a fluke. I used to get them pretty often but thought I sorted it out and only got them 2 or 3 times a year for a while.
Mmm kay. Done whining I think. I will try to write up the rest of our exciting vacation soon.
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